{"id":228,"date":"2015-03-10T12:46:13","date_gmt":"2015-03-10T09:46:13","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.yeniterter.az\/?p=228"},"modified":"2015-11-26T17:56:07","modified_gmt":"2015-11-26T14:56:07","slug":"sukuta-q%c9%99rq-olmus-ur%c9%99yiml%c9%99-m%c9%99n","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/?p=228","title":{"rendered":"\u00abS\u00fckuta q\u0259rq olmu\u015f \u00fcr\u0259yiml\u0259 m\u0259n\u00bb"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u00abYeni T\u0259rt\u0259r \u00bb q\u0259zetinin ba\u015f redaktoru\u00a0 Tofiq Yusif\u0259<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00c7ox m\u00f6ht\u0259r\u0259m Tofiq m\u00fc\u0259llim!<\/p>\n

Son ill\u0259r q\u0259lbimin v\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259mimin susdu\u011funu yax\u015f\u0131 bilirsiniz. \u0130rad\u0259siz v\u0259 m\u0259tan\u0259tsiz bir insan olaraq yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131q \u0259zablar\u0131ndan qa\u00e7d\u0131m. B\u0259sir\u0259t g\u00f6z\u00fcm ba\u011fland\u0131, h\u0259yatda i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k depressiyaya q\u0259rq oldum. \u0130lham m\u0259nd\u0259n uzaq d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

D\u00fcnyada m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259n \u0259ziz olan \u00fc\u00e7 \u0259v\u0259zsiz nem\u0259ti (da\u011flar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, me\u015f\u0259l\u0259rimizi, k\u0259ndimizi) itirm\u0259kl\u0259 bah\u0259m bir \u00e7ox inam v\u0259 inanclar\u0131m\u0131n pu\u00e7 v\u0259 \u0259fsan\u0259 oldu\u011funu g\u00f6rm\u0259k m\u0259ni sars\u0131td\u0131, \u00e7ilik-\u00e7ilik el\u0259di, \u00fcmidsizlik k\u00f6lg\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7evirdi.<\/p>\n

Vaxtil\u0259 k\u0259ndd\u0259, cavanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u015fahl\u0131q taxt\u0131nda olark\u0259n \u018fli K\u0259rimin \u00abd\u0259rdli s\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r\u00bb ifad\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7ox t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 baxard\u0131m. Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni \u00abd\u0259rdli s\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r\u00bb? S\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 d\u0259 d\u0259rd yara\u015farm\u0131? S\u0259h\u0259r yeni g\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131c\u0131d\u0131r, sevincidir, f\u0259r\u0259hdir, qanadlanan arzulard\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Taleyim\u0259 qa\u00e7q\u0131nl\u0131q d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, \u00abd\u0259rdli s\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259rin\u00bb n\u0259 oldu\u011funu anlad\u0131m: s\u0259h\u0259r yuxudan ay\u0131l\u0131rsan, ilk duydu\u011fun bu olur ki, \u00f6z evind\u0259-e\u015fiyind\u0259, elind\u0259-obanda deyils\u0259n\u2013s\u0259n qa\u00e7q\u0131nsan! (Nec\u0259 yara\u015fd\u0131rmaq olar bu s\u00f6z\u00fc insana?!)<\/p>\n

K\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u0259 da\u011f boyda bir d\u0259rdin a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcr, yerind\u0259n qalxmaq, harasa getm\u0259k, n\u0259s\u0259 etm\u0259k\u2013ya\u015famaq ist\u0259mirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Bax, bel\u0259c\u0259 ba\u015flan\u0131r m\u0259nim h\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259rim. V\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 yalvar\u0131ram ki, aya\u011fa qalx\u0131m, bu m\u0259nas\u0131z \u00f6mr\u00fc ya\u015fama\u011fa davam edim. D\u00fcn\u0259nin \u015firinliyini, bug\u00fcn\u00fcn ac\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, sabah\u0131n qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duya-duya.<\/p>\n

Bu ya\u015fay\u0131\u015f t\u0259rzi m\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 r\u0259\u011fb\u0259t yaratd\u0131. Onun z\u0259ruriliyini, misilsizliyini anlad\u0131m, Tanr\u0131n\u0131n ikinci \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259si oldu\u011funu d\u0259rk v\u0259 q\u0259bul etdim. \u00abD\u00fcnyada h\u0259r \u015feyin \u00e7ar\u0259si var, \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n ba\u015fqa\u00bb deyiminin yanl\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fu q\u0259na\u0259tin\u0259 g\u0259ldim. Ax\u0131, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fc el\u0259 \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck \u00e7ar\u0259dir. (\u00c7ar\u0259nin \u00e7ar\u0259y\u0259 n\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131? H\u0259yatda d\u0259rd\u0259, \u0259za-ba, iztiraba, xo\u015f olmayan h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 son qoyaraq d\u00fcnyan\u0131 g\u00f6z\u0259llikd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 qoymayan ulu q\u00fcvv\u0259y\u0259 e\u015fq olsun!)<\/p>\n

\u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc ilk duyanlardan biri rus m\u00fct\u0259f\u0259kkir yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 Maksim Qorki (Ac\u0131 Maksim) olmu\u015fdur (\u00abLara haqq\u0131nda \u0259fsan\u0259\u00bb).<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z\u00fcm \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 yer verdiyim bu dos-tumla ani bir g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f dil\u0259yind\u0259y\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Bel\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259rimin birind\u0259 hiss etdim ki, i\u00e7imd\u0259 yeni bir \u015feirin may\u0259si do\u011fulur. Amma q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u0259li\u015f idi bu. \u0130lham\u0131n t\u0259bi\u0259t\u0259 bahar\u0131n g\u0259li\u015fini xat\u0131rladan g\u0259li\u015find\u0259n \u0259s\u0259r-\u0259lam\u0259t yox idi. \u018fzabl\u0131 bir a\u011fr\u0131yla do\u011fulurdu bu \u015feir.<\/p>\n

D\u00fcz on alt\u0131 g\u00fcn \u00e7\u0259kdi bu a\u011fr\u0131lar. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 \u015fahid oldum ki, \u015feir bu q\u0259d\u0259r m\u00fcdd\u0259t\u0259 yaz\u0131larm\u0131\u015f. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 \u015fahid oldum ki, \u015feir ilhams\u0131z, t\u0259kc\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131dan do\u011fularm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n

Ustad, deyin, \u015feir bel\u0259 yarana bil\u0259rmi, \u015feirdirmi bu?<\/p>\n

\u018fg\u0259r \u015feirdirs\u0259, do\u011fma k\u0259ndim Umudlunun i\u015f\u011fal\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fc (28.02.92) \u0259r\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259 h\u0259yata v\u0259siq\u0259 verin. Qoy ya\u015fas\u0131n v\u0259 s\u0259rh\u0259d tan\u0131mayan v\u0259t\u0259n k\u00fcl\u0259yi onu o\u011flu ola bilm\u0259diyim v\u0259t\u0259nim\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131rs\u0131n, g\u00f6y\u0259r\u00e7in dimdiyind\u0259ki bir su damlas\u0131 kimi.<\/p>\n

\"zabil\"<\/a><\/p>\n

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\u00a0<\/em><\/strong>D\u0259rin ehtiramla:<\/strong><\/p>\n

Zabil \u00a0 \u00a0S\u00fcleymano\u011flu.<\/strong><\/p>\n

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\u00abYeni T\u0259rt\u0259r \u00bb q\u0259zetinin ba\u015f redaktoru\u00a0 Tofiq Yusif\u0259 \u00a0\u00c7ox m\u00f6ht\u0259r\u0259m Tofiq m\u00fc\u0259llim! Son ill\u0259r q\u0259lbimin v\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259mimin susdu\u011funu yax\u015f\u0131 bilirsiniz. \u0130rad\u0259siz v\u0259 m\u0259tan\u0259tsiz bir insan olaraq yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131q \u0259zablar\u0131ndan qa\u00e7d\u0131m. B\u0259sir\u0259t g\u00f6z\u00fcm ba\u011fland\u0131, h\u0259yatda i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k depressiyaya q\u0259rq oldum. \u0130lham m\u0259nd\u0259n uzaq d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. D\u00fcnyada m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259n \u0259ziz olan \u00fc\u00e7 \u0259v\u0259zsiz nem\u0259ti (da\u011flar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, me\u015f\u0259l\u0259rimizi, k\u0259ndimizi) […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[11],"tags":[12],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/228"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=228"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/228\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=228"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=228"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=228"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}