{"id":21675,"date":"2022-05-19T09:22:28","date_gmt":"2022-05-19T06:22:28","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/?p=21675"},"modified":"2022-05-19T09:22:28","modified_gmt":"2022-05-19T06:22:28","slug":"ana-h%c9%99sr%c9%99ti","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/?p=21675","title":{"rendered":"ANA H\u018fSR\u018fT\u0130"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\" wp-image-21676 alignleft\" src=\"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/22222.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"124\" height=\"155\" \/>V\u0259rdi\u015f el\u0259mi\u015fdim h\u0259r g\u00fcn. Q\u0259zet k\u00f6\u015fk\u00fc i\u015f yolumun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 oldu\u011fundan, h\u0259rd\u0259n maraqla oxudu\u011fum q\u0259zeti al\u0131b, i\u015f vaxt\u0131 ba\u015flayana q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6zd\u0259n ke\u00e7irirdim. X\u00fcsusil\u0259 q\u0259zetin b\u0259dii s\u0259hif\u0259sini a\u00e7\u0131b, maraql\u0131 yaz\u0131lar\u0131, \u015feirl\u0259ri oxuyurdum.<br \/>\nQ\u0259zetin bug\u00fcnk\u00fc n\u00f6mr\u0259sind\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f imza g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Ara-s\u0131ra m\u00fc\u0259llifin yaz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 oxuyurdum. Yaz\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259ni c\u0259lb etdi. Ba\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ad\u0131 \u201cAna h\u0259sr\u0259ti\u201d idi. Oxudum, \u00e7ox m\u00fct\u0259\u0259ssir oldum. Yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 onun u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131 idimi? Bilmir\u0259m. Amma m\u0259nim nisgilli ke\u00e7irdiyim u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131ma b\u0259nz\u0259r bir yaz\u0131 idi. S\u0259n dem\u0259, ox\u015far sif\u0259tl\u0259r kimi ox\u015far talel\u0259r d\u0259 varm\u0131\u015f.<br \/>\n\u201cAna h\u0259sr\u0259ti\u201d bel\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131: \u201cAx\u015fam g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi kimi m\u0259n d\u0259 q\u00fcruba \u0259yilir\u0259m. Q\u00fcrubda qara buludlar g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. K\u00f6\u00e7 karvan\u0131 yol \u00fcst\u0259di. M\u0259nzil ba\u015f\u0131na n\u0259 vaxt \u00e7atar? Onu Allah bil\u0259r. Qabaqda ged\u0259nl\u0259r var. Bu yolun uzunlu\u011fu kilometrl\u0259rl\u0259 yox, zamanla \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fcr. Uzun bir n\u00f6vb\u0259 var. N\u00f6vb\u0259 ya\u015fa g\u00f6r\u0259 deyil. Nizams\u0131z-intizams\u0131z bir n\u00f6vb\u0259dir. Bu n\u00f6vb\u0259d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n ki\u00e7ikl\u0259r d\u0259, u\u015faqlar da qaba\u011fa ke\u00e7ir. N\u0259 dey\u0259s\u0259n? O da bir al\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131d\u0131r. Allah m\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6nd\u0259kil\u0259ri qorusun. N\u00f6vb\u0259m \u00e7atanda yolum s\u0259n t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259dir, Ana! N\u0259 vaxt \u00e7ataca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilmir\u0259m. M\u0259ni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u0259n odur ki, m\u0259ni tan\u0131ya bil\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259nmi? S\u0259n 32 ya\u015fl\u0131 g\u0259nc bir qad\u0131n, m\u0259n 80-ni haqlam\u0131\u015f, sa\u00e7lar\u0131 a\u011farm\u0131\u015f, \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 h\u0259r ild\u0259n bir nax\u0131\u015f qalan, yeri\u015fi yava\u015f\u0131yan biri&#8230;\u201d<!--more--><br \/>\nM\u00fc\u0259llif sonra bel\u0259 yaz\u0131rd\u0131: \u201cBir ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131 xat\u0131rlamasam da o g\u00fcnl\u0259ri yax\u015f\u0131 xat\u0131rlay\u0131ram. O vaxt m\u0259nim 2 ya\u015f\u0131m olarm\u0131\u015f, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bir az art\u0131q. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 k\u00f6hn\u0259 evimizin al\u00e7aq p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sinin i\u00e7ind\u0259 oturard\u0131m. Yad\u0131mdad\u0131 havalar da indiki kimi tutqun v\u0259 soyuq olard\u0131. Zaman pay\u0131z f\u0259sli imi\u015f. \u00c7\u00f6ld\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011far, m\u0259n d\u0259 a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 bax\u0131b s\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259rdim. Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259ni d\u00f6y\u0259cl\u0259y\u0259r, damc\u0131lar\u0131 s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259d\u0259n a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u015f\u00fct\u00fcy\u0259rdi. Yoxsa, bu ya\u011f\u0131\u015f damc\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259si m\u0259ni ovundurmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f. O vaxt t\u0259s\u0259lli n\u0259dir, anlamazd\u0131m ki. T\u0259s\u0259llini anam\u0131n isti n\u0259f\u0259si, birc\u0259 \u00f6p\u00fcc\u00fcy\u00fc ver\u0259 bil\u0259rmi\u015f. Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f damc\u0131lar\u0131 \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 iz salard\u0131. M\u0259nim g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131m da \u00e7irkli \u00fcz\u00fcmd\u0259 c\u0131\u011f\u0131r a\u00e7ard\u0131.<br \/>\nS\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259rdim. G\u00f6zl\u0259ntim h\u0259r g\u00fcn davam ed\u0259rdi. S\u0259n g\u0259lm\u0259k bilmirdin&#8230; S\u0259nin h\u0259nirtin\u0259, isti n\u0259f\u0259sin\u0259 m\u00f6htac qald\u0131q. Bizi kim\u0259 \u0259man\u0259t etmi\u015fdin, Ana! Yad\u0131mdad\u0131r&#8230; p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259 m\u0259n q\u0131s\u0131l\u0131b oturard\u0131m. Qar\u015f\u0131 k\u00fcncd\u0259 par\u00e7adan tikilmi\u015f, i\u00e7i \u00e7iyidli pamb\u0131qla doldurulmu\u015f t\u0259k-ayaql\u0131 g\u0259linciyim. \u0130kilikd\u0259 oturub s\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259rdik. M\u0259n s\u0259nin h\u0259sr\u0259tinl\u0259 a\u011flayanda o m\u0259ni ovundura bilmirdi. O dan\u0131\u015fmaq bilmirdi. Onun qa\u015f-g\u00f6z\u00fc, a\u011fz\u0131-burnu m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259bl\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015fdir. Gec\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r yatard\u0131q. He\u00e7 ayr\u0131lm\u0131rd\u0131q&#8230; yast\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z atam\u0131n qollar\u0131 olard\u0131. H\u0259r ax\u015fam yatmazdan \u0259vv\u0259l atam biz\u0259 na\u011f\u0131l dan\u0131\u015fard\u0131. Bir d\u0259 dey\u0259rdi ki, gedib s\u0259nin anan\u0131 tap\u0131b g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259m.<br \/>\nH\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 s\u0259ni arzulayard\u0131m. U\u015faqlar analar\u0131n\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n tutanda m\u0259nim \u0259lim bo\u015f qalard\u0131. Onlar\u0131n analar\u0131 vard\u0131, m\u0259nim yox? Hara getmi\u015fdin? Yoxsa m\u0259nd\u0259n k\u00fcsm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcn. He\u00e7 yuxuma da g\u0259lmirdin. Soyuq aylarda burnumu p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin buz kimi soyuq \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259sin\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259yib, \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 baxard\u0131m. \u00c7\u00f6ld\u0259 k\u00fcl\u0259kd\u0259 q\u0131vr\u0131l\u0131b y\u0131r\u011falanan \u00e7\u00f6r-\u00e7\u00f6pd\u0259n, bir d\u0259 yarpaqlar\u0131 saral\u0131b t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n a\u011faclardan ba\u015fqa bir \u015fey g\u00f6rm\u0259zdim.<br \/>\nYa\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011fanda a\u011faclar\u0131n budaqlar\u0131ndan damc\u0131lar as\u0131lard\u0131. Onlardam\u0131 a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131? M\u0259n d\u0259 onlara qo\u015fulub a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131m. A\u011faclar yenid\u0259n ya\u015f\u0131lla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Amma s\u0259n g\u0259lmirdin, Ana!<br \/>\nH\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 qap\u0131s\u0131 c\u0131r\u0131ldad\u0131qca, el\u0259 bilirdim ki, g\u0259l\u0259n s\u0259ns\u0259n. Hara getmi\u015fdin? Niy\u0259 qay\u0131tm\u0131rd\u0131n?<br \/>\nP\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n baxa-baxa, s\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259-g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcm. Atam bir g\u00fcn s\u0259ni g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 s\u00f6z vermi\u015fdi&#8230;.<br \/>\nYen\u0259 bir g\u00fcn k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n c\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131na y\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Atamla b\u0259rab\u0259r g\u0259l\u0259n qad\u0131n\u0131n dizl\u0259rini sevincl\u0259 qucaqlad\u0131m, el\u0259 bildim g\u0259l\u0259n s\u0259ns\u0259n, Ana! Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131m. Diqq\u0259t k\u0259sildim.<br \/>\nEvd\u0259 divardan as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, qara \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259d\u0259n h\u0259r g\u00fcn m\u0259n\u0259 mehriban bax\u0131\u015fla g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259n qad\u0131na b\u0259nz\u0259d\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. Soyuq bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan \u00fcrp\u0259ndim. Qad\u0131n\u0131n dizl\u0259rini burax\u0131b, atama q\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131m. H\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 i\u00e7imd\u0259 bo\u011fub a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131m. Atam n\u0259s\u0259 deyirdi. E\u015fitmirdim. Atam\u0131n s\u0259si qula\u011f\u0131mda u\u011fulday\u0131rd\u0131&#8230;.. G\u0259l\u0259n s\u0259n deyil-din, Ana! G\u0259l\u0259n anas\u0131z ke\u00e7ir\u0259c\u0259yimiz \u00e7\u0259tin, \u00e7ox nisgilli ill\u0259r imi\u015f&#8230;<br \/>\nDavam\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259n n\u00f6mr\u0259d\u0259\u201d. Yaz\u0131 burda bitmi\u015fdi. A\u011fr\u0131-ac\u0131larla dolu u\u015faql\u0131q ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f qoca m\u00fc\u0259llif\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yim a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131. G\u0259r\u0259k davam\u0131n\u0131 izl\u0259yim. M\u00fc\u0259llif \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu ana h\u0259sr\u0259til\u0259, ana ac\u0131s\u0131yla ya\u015fay\u0131bm\u0131\u015f. Yaz\u0131q ana. \u00c7ox t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf etdim. He\u00e7 bir u\u015faq anas\u0131z olmas\u0131n.<br \/>\nBir u\u015faq mahn\u0131s\u0131nda deyildiyi kimi:<br \/>\n<em><strong>\u201cQoy h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f olsun,<\/strong><\/em><br \/>\n<em><strong>Qoy h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 s\u0259ma olsun,<\/strong><\/em><br \/>\n<em><strong>Qoy h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 anam olsun,<\/strong><\/em><br \/>\n<em><strong>M\u0259n d\u0259 olum h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259.<\/strong><\/em><br \/>\n<em><strong>U\u015faqlar atal\u0131-anal\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fcs\u00fcnl\u0259r. <\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right;\"><em><strong>H\u0259qiq\u0259t Qaraba\u011fl\u0131<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>V\u0259rdi\u015f el\u0259mi\u015fdim h\u0259r g\u00fcn. Q\u0259zet k\u00f6\u015fk\u00fc i\u015f yolumun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 oldu\u011fundan, h\u0259rd\u0259n maraqla oxudu\u011fum q\u0259zeti al\u0131b, i\u015f vaxt\u0131 ba\u015flayana q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6zd\u0259n ke\u00e7irirdim. X\u00fcsusil\u0259 q\u0259zetin b\u0259dii s\u0259hif\u0259sini a\u00e7\u0131b, maraql\u0131 yaz\u0131lar\u0131, \u015feirl\u0259ri oxuyurdum. Q\u0259zetin bug\u00fcnk\u00fc n\u00f6mr\u0259sind\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f imza g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Ara-s\u0131ra m\u00fc\u0259llifin yaz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 oxuyurdum. Yaz\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259ni c\u0259lb etdi. Ba\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ad\u0131 \u201cAna h\u0259sr\u0259ti\u201d idi. Oxudum, \u00e7ox m\u00fct\u0259\u0259ssir oldum. Yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[11],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21675"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=21675"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21675\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":21677,"href":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21675\/revisions\/21677"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=21675"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=21675"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=21675"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}