{"id":15052,"date":"2020-02-24T11:24:39","date_gmt":"2020-02-24T08:24:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.yeniterter.az\/?p=15052"},"modified":"2020-02-24T11:24:50","modified_gmt":"2020-02-24T08:24:50","slug":"xocalida-nec%c9%99-nec%c9%99-%c9%99sg%c9%99rl%c9%99r-t%c9%99r%c9%99find%c9%99n-zorlanan-12-yasli-az%c9%99rbaycanli-qiz","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/?p=15052","title":{"rendered":"XOCALIDA NE\u00c7\u018f-NE\u00c7\u018f \u018fSG\u018fRL\u018fR T\u018fR\u018fF\u0130ND\u018fN  ZORLANAN 12 YA\u015eLI AZ\u018fRBAYCANLI QIZ"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Dizl\u0259rimi qarn\u0131ma \u00e7\u0259kib oturdum. Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u0259ll\u0259rimin aras\u0131nda s\u0131x\u0131b a\u011flad\u0131m.<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\" wp-image-15053 alignright\" src=\"http:\/\/www.yeniterter.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/1579887467_1-300x263.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"179\" height=\"157\" srcset=\"https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/1579887467_1-300x263.jpg 300w, https:\/\/yeniterter.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/1579887467_1.jpg 480w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 179px) 100vw, 179px\" \/><br \/>\n\u015e\u00fcurlu bir t\u0259kliyin i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmaqdan qorxdum, qa\u00e7maq ist\u0259dim! Bilirdim \u0259slind\u0259 qa\u00e7ma\u011f\u0131n, susma\u011f\u0131n, qorxma\u011f\u0131n n\u0259 dem\u0259k oldu\u011funu! Amma bu d\u0259f\u0259 ba\u015fqa idi\u2026 \u00c7\u00fcnki 23 ildir qurtula bilmirdim!<br \/>\nYen\u0259 h\u0259min 4 g\u00fcn yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r. Yen\u0259 m\u0259n unutma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m o g\u00fcnl\u0259ri, xat\u0131rlay\u0131b, 4 g\u00fcn min d\u0259f\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcb, diril\u0259c\u0259m!<br \/>\nAc\u0131mas\u0131z q\u0259hq\u0259h\u0259l\u0259r, bomba s\u0259sl\u0259ri, qan g\u00f6l\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259n k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r, bitm\u0259y\u0259n f\u0259ryadlar!&#8230; <!--more--><br \/>\n\u0130ll\u0259r ke\u00e7m\u0259sin\u0259 baxmayaraq, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc tapa bilm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m! N\u0259 vaxt yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fs\u0259, q\u0131r\u0131b-da\u011f\u0131d\u0131ram. G\u00f6zl\u0259rim qan \u00e7ana\u011f\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fcr a\u011flamaqdan!<br \/>\nYumru\u011fumu, d\u0131rna\u011f\u0131m \u0259timi qanadana q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0131x\u0131ram!<br \/>\nD\u00fcnyaya q\u0131z do\u011fuldu\u011fum \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yaradan\u0131 l\u0259n\u0259tl\u0259yir\u0259m!13 ya\u015f\u0131m var idi. 12 il ke\u00e7irdiyim o m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m q\u0131\u015f f\u0259slinin 13-c\u00fc ilini ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131m. Amma dey\u0259s\u0259n bu q\u0131\u015f da-ha s\u0259rt ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259kdi!<br \/>\nM\u00fcharib\u0259nin n\u0259 oldu\u011funu d\u0259rk etmirdim. Amma h\u0259r \u015fey &#8220;ka\u015f o s\u0259h\u0259r he\u00e7 a\u00e7\u0131lmazd\u0131!\u201d dediyim g\u00fcn d\u0259yi\u015fdi\u2026<br \/>\nSoyuq q\u0131\u015f s\u0259h\u0259ri idi. H\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259f a\u011f \u00f6rp\u0259y\u0259 b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Qap\u0131 s\u0259rt \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fclm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Bir q\u0259d\u0259r sonra ayaqla vururdular. S\u0259s ham\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 qorxutdu. Atam qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7an kimi, avtomat\u0131n arxas\u0131 il\u0259 sin\u0259sind\u0259n vurdular. Z\u0259rb\u0259nin t\u0259sirind\u0259n, qeyri-ixtiyar\u0131 olaraq atam yer\u0259 s\u0259rildi!<br \/>\nSonra silah\u0131 biz\u0259 do\u011fruldaraq \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xma\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u0259mr etdil\u0259r. Bizi evimizin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 meydana y\u00f6n\u0259ltdil\u0259r. Burda \u00e7oxlu\u011fun qad\u0131n v\u0259 u\u015faq t\u0259\u015fkil etdiyi, xeyli insan vard\u0131. G\u00fcll\u0259l\u0259r g\u00f6yd\u0259 u\u00e7u\u015furdu. Sa\u011fa, sola diqq\u0259t etm\u0259s\u0259k, aln\u0131m\u0131za d\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k kimi idi&#8230;<br \/>\nBir q\u0259d\u0259r sonra h\u0259rbi ma\u015f\u0131nlardan 20-\u0259 yax\u0131n \u0259sg\u0259r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, biz\u0259 do\u011fru g\u0259ldi. Avtomat\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 tu\u015flayaraq, ma\u015f\u0131nlara \u00e7\u0131xma\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259mr verdil\u0259r. Me\u015f\u0259nin yax\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda h\u0259rbi hiss\u0259nin bazas\u0131na g\u0259tirdil\u0259r. El\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259, g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rimd\u0259n \u015foka d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. D\u00f6rd bir yanda i\u015fg\u0259nc\u0259 var idi. Qad\u0131nlar zorlan\u0131r, ki\u015fil\u0259r d\u00f6y\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. Avtomat\u0131n arxas\u0131 il\u0259 ki\u015fil\u0259rin cinsi orqan\u0131na vururdular. Bir daha bizim ki\u015fil\u0259rd\u0259n u\u015faq d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259tir\u0259 bilm\u0259m\u0259kl\u0259ri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u2026 Yeni do\u011facaq n\u0259slin, onlardan olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 deyirdil\u0259r.<br \/>\nBir q\u0259d\u0259rd\u0259n sonra ki\u015fil\u0259ri ma\u015f\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Atam g\u00f6z\u0259 d\u0259ymirdi.<br \/>\nHam\u0131 ac-susuz idi. M\u0259n is\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc q\u0131r qazan\u0131na at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f v\u0259 bir azdan \u0259riyib m\u0259hlula d\u00f6n\u0259c\u0259k kimi hiss edirdim. Balaca b\u0259d\u0259niml\u0259 insanlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc unudulmu\u015f kimi hiss etm\u0259yim is\u0259 bir az t\u0259s\u0259lli verirdi. Sanki ki\u00e7ik olmam, avantaj\u0131m idi.<br \/>\nBir q\u0259d\u0259r sonra qaranl\u0131q \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc, g\u00f6st\u0259ri\u015f\u0259 \u0259sas\u0259n bizi h\u0259rbi ma\u015f\u0131nlara y\u0131\u011faraq me\u015f\u0259y\u0259 do\u011fru apar\u0131rd\u0131lar.<br \/>\nYollarda g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t idi. \u015e\u0259h\u0259r qan g\u00f6l\u00fc-n\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Adama el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, buluddan ya\u011f\u0131\u015f \u0259v\u0259-zin\u0259 qan ya\u011fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ortal\u0131qda d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n ordunun \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Yer\u0259 s\u0259rilmi\u015f insanlar\u0131n, \u00f6l\u00fcb \u00f6lm\u0259diyini yoxlay\u0131rd\u0131lar. H\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t v\u0259 s\u0259s g\u0259l\u0259n kimi yenid\u0259n g\u00fcll\u0259l\u0259yirdil\u0259r.<br \/>\nDaha \u0259vv\u0259l g\u00f6rm\u0259diyim yer\u0259 g\u0259tirdil\u0259r bizi. Burada da xeyli \u0259sir v\u0259 eyni i\u015fg\u0259nc\u0259l\u0259r g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. \u0130nsanlar\u0131 diri-diri yand\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131lar. B\u0259zi ki\u015fil\u0259r ir\u0259li \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, hans\u0131sa qad\u0131n\u0131 qorumaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259, g\u00fcll\u0259l\u0259nirdi!<br \/>\nBu g\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yad\u0131mdad\u0131r, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259 \u0259rzind\u0259 20-y\u0259 yax\u0131n ki\u015fi \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fc. Ki\u015fil\u0259rin \u00e7oxu qad\u0131nlara qar\u015f\u0131 o m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259kd\u0259ns\u0259, sanki etiraz edib g\u00fcll\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259yi daha \u00fcst\u00fcn tuturdular! \u0130nsanl\u0131q tarixi o m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259ni g\u00f6rm-y\u0259 haz\u0131r olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131na \u0259min\u0259m!<br \/>\nBa\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259ri g\u00f6rm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6lm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 insanlara edil\u0259n v\u0259h\u015filiyi g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259, \u0259timd\u0259n \u0259t k\u0259silirdi. Beynimi uyu\u015fdurmaq, yatmaq, yox olmaq ist\u0259yirdim. G\u0259nc q\u0131zlara atalar\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda t\u0259cav\u00fcz edir v\u0259 qorxulu filml\u0259rd\u0259, \u0259caib rol ifa\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 kimi q\u0259hq\u0259h\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kirdil\u0259r. &#8220;\u00d6l\u00fcm\u0259 m\u0259hkumsunuz, soyunuzu qurudaca\u011f\u0131q, qarn\u0131n\u0131zda bizim o\u011flanlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 da\u015f\u0131yacaqs\u0131n\u0131z\u201ddeyib, qad\u0131nlara h\u00fccum \u00e7\u0259kirdil\u0259r.<br \/>\nG\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda hamil\u0259 qad\u0131n\u0131n qarn\u0131n c\u0131r\u0131b, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131b, oca\u011fa atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. O m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259, m\u0259n \u00e7oxdan \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n getmi\u015fdim. G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc a\u00e7anda o vahim\u0259-nin i\u00e7ind\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcya\u015fl\u0131 anam\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.<br \/>\nOrda qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m 4 g\u00fcn davam ed\u0259n v\u0259h\u015filikd\u0259n geriy\u0259 az sayda sa\u011f insan qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. O vaxta q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259, anama v\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 qad\u0131na toxunmad\u0131qlar\u0131 m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259 olmal\u0131 idi.<br \/>\nN\u00f6vb\u0259ti gec\u0259 idi. G\u00f6y\u00fcn \u00fcz\u00fc q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 idi. Sanki yerd\u0259ki qan\u0131n r\u0259ngi g\u00f6yd\u0259 \u0259ksini tapm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<br \/>\nQaranl\u0131q, pis qoxulu ota\u011f\u0131n bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. Bir azdan ayaq s\u0259sl\u0259ri g\u0259ldi. Anam m\u0259ni b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk qucaqlay\u0131b ba\u011fr\u0131na basm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u018flac\u0131 olsa sanki yenid\u0259n b\u0259tnind\u0259 gizl\u0259d\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r titr\u0259yirdi. Amma titr\u0259m\u0259si bo\u015f yer\u0259 deyildi. \u00c7\u00fcnki o ayaq s\u0259sl\u0259rind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n \u0259l, m\u0259ni anamdan dart\u0131b qopard\u0131. Az qal\u0131rd\u0131 nal\u0259si g\u00f6y\u0259 \u00e7ats\u0131n, onu daha \u0259vv\u0259l bu c\u00fcr g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdim. M\u0259ni n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn apard\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrd\u00fcm. A\u011flay\u0131r, bildiyim b\u00fct\u00fcn yalvar\u0131\u015flar\u0131 edirdim, aparmamaqlar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn!<br \/>\nD\u0259hliz boyunca gah s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259r\u0259k, gah it\u0259l\u0259y\u0259-it\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 bir ota\u011fa atd\u0131lar. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc itirm\u0259d\u0259n sakitl\u0259\u015fdim. Ota\u011fa g\u00f6z g\u0259zdirdim. Hiss olunurdu ki, bu otaq dig\u0259rl\u0259rind\u0259n s\u0259liq\u0259li v\u0259 hans\u0131sa r\u00fctb\u0259li \u015f\u0259xs\u0259 m\u0259xsusdur. Bir q\u0259d\u0259r sonra d\u0259hlizd\u0259 iti v\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r add\u0131mlar e\u015fidilm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Qal\u0131n bir s\u0259s: &#8220;onun q\u0131z\u0131d\u0131r?\u201d sual\u0131n\u0131 verib, cavab almadan i\u00e7\u0259ri da-xil oldu! H\u00fcnd\u00fcr, k\u00f6k, 45 ya\u015flar\u0131nda, saqqal\u0131, sa\u00e7\u0131nda t\u0259k-t\u0259k a\u011f t\u00fck g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n adamla g\u00f6z-g\u00f6z\u0259 g\u0259ldik! \u00dcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki nifr\u0259t, \u00fcr\u0259k buland\u0131ran g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259m\u0259 il\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 baxd\u0131. Q\u0259-f\u0259sd\u0259n a\u00e7\u0131lan v\u0259h\u015fi heyvan kimi \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 \u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131.<br \/>\nSad\u0259c\u0259 \u0259limi \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 at\u0131b, c\u0131rma\u011fa f\u00fcrs\u0259t tapa bildim. \u00c7\u00fcn-ki bir q\u0259d\u0259rd\u0259n sonra sa\u00e7\u0131mdan yap\u0131\u015faraq, divara \u00e7\u0131rpm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. B\u0259d\u0259nim sanki ma\u015f\u0131n alt\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015f kimi s\u0131z\u0131lday\u0131rd\u0131. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, di\u015fim q\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn a\u011fz\u0131m da qan i\u00e7ind\u0259 idi.<br \/>\nAln\u0131mdan axan qan da, \u00fcz\u00fcmd\u0259n s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259k g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 dolmu\u015fdu. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u0259 g\u0259lib, qan dolu g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi a\u00e7anda, qarn\u0131mdak\u0131 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli a\u011fr\u0131, b\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 unutdurmu\u015fdu! B\u0259d\u0259-nim keyimi\u015fdi! H\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t etm\u0259d\u0259n, fikirl\u0259\u015firdim. Anam\u0131n niy\u0259 nal\u0259 etm\u0259sini indi daha yax\u015f\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcm! Art\u0131q balaca q\u0131z yox, t\u0259cav\u00fcz\u0259 u\u011fram\u0131\u015f qad\u0131n idim. \u0130\u00e7i par\u00e7alanm\u0131\u015f, hissi al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f, h\u0259m b\u0259d\u0259nin\u0259, h\u0259m ruhuna, h\u0259m g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 t\u0259cav\u00fcz edilmi\u015f qad\u0131n!<br \/>\nQad\u0131n kimi formala\u015fmayan ki\u00e7ik b\u0259d\u0259nim, t\u0259cav\u00fcz\u00fcn \u0259n d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tlisin\u0259 m\u0259ruz qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<br \/>\nYerd\u0259n qalxa bilmirdim. Sanki ill\u0259rl\u0259 yata\u011fa ba\u011fl\u0131 x\u0259st\u0259 idim. \u0130ndi is\u0259 yataqdan yer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f, h\u0259min k\u00f6m\u0259ksiz x\u0259st\u0259d\u0259n f\u0259rqim yox idi.<br \/>\n\u00d6z\u00fcm\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259d\u0259n n\u00f6vb\u0259ti d\u0259f\u0259 eyni adam daxil olmaqla, dig\u0259r \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259rin t\u0259cav\u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 m\u0259ruz qald\u0131m. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fc c\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m yek\u0259p\u0259r h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259d\u0259 v\u0259 ya g\u00fczg\u00fcd\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdiyi siqareti b\u0259d\u0259nimd\u0259 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u0259r\u0259k, balaca fa-hi\u015f\u0259 il\u0259 ba\u015flayan s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259ri s\u0131ralay\u0131rd\u0131. 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